Every now and then I get this overwhelming feeling of graciousness and awe because of where I am. It usually happens as I am crossing the river into the Loop for an audition or something. When I realize that my dream of living in a big city is an actuality, I get kinda tingly inside.
This only happens a few times a month though, and the rest of that month I have to spend trying to stay optimistic and hopeful for all those other dreams to be an actuality. I've been hard on myself the past few months and scolded myself because I haven't hit the 'optimal' actor's dream of being forever employed in a large theater or film company getting regular gigs. So I've recently tried to spot those moments of astonishment in my own work. A bit of a recap of my "successes," if not to get you up to date then to help my disposition: I grabbed a full time job to pay rent. I was offered a job as ballroom dance instructor (what?). I auditioned fervently for the past 3 months. I signed with an agent. I have my Chicago (albeit small) stage debut opening on March 20 (Check out the theater and purchase tickets here: http://www.benevolenttheatre.com). I started a film class downtown at Acting Studio Chicago entitled, Advanced film Techniques for the Professional Actor (sounds fancy so I had to include it). I've auditioned for 2 of the large house theaters downtown. And lastly but certainly not least: I've met some really cool people: actors, directors, cooks, pastry chefs, retirees, dancers, Pilates instructors, book store clerks, baristas and so many more.
I think I am a better person when I keep thinking about what I have done and who I have met, instead of what I wish to do, or who I want to meet.
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