I have been awful about keeping up on this stupid blog and I apologize to the people who actually read this. I still can't quite believe that anyone actually does read it. So I'm going to do a quick update and then a quick meditation on some things that I have been chewing on lately.
Things are going well for me. I closed my first Chicago show, got some great auditions for great theaters, met some more awesome people, accompanied auditions, moved in with my brother and cousin to a new apartment, and booked a few more shows for this year! I will be starting rehearsals for 'Charlotte's Web' at Emerald City Children's Theatre in June and opening downtown at the Broadway Playhouse in July just in time to start up rehearsals with Awkward Pause Theatre's 'Urinetown'. I have a few months aside after 'Urinetown' goes up in August and before I start Emerald City's Christmas show, also downtown. I am thrilled to be in all. Emerald City is a great company that is doing great work in the city and treats their actors very well. It pays which is always a plus and is a kids show that will allow me to do something I haven't been able to do in a show for a while: play the cello. I'm ecstatic to be in 'Urinetown' as the director (Elana Boulos) is someone I've been wanting to work with since first coming to the city, and I will be in the ensemble which is something I've wanted to do ever since I first saw the show. The Christmas show seems way to far off to have any sort of opinion on the matter, but its nothing short of a miracle that I have booked myself through January. And I am deeply grateful and humbled by it all.
All this happened in April. And then I moved to a quiet apartment with a nice living space and a nice kitchen and big windows. This quiet time before the craziness that will be my summer is immensely needed. There are some stresses concerning scheduling and finances and other logistics that come with the 'starving artist' card, but my tea filled mornings and evening runs have created space that before I tried to fill with 'stuff'. Perspective is something I feel as an artist is sometimes lost. Now, I know this is a little bit of a paradox as an artist is sometimes the best purveyor of perspective , but I sometimes think that I spend too much time actively seeking out how 'the world is perceived' in a broad sense, instead of me - now - experiencing the world so I can let others in on that experience on stage/camera. (I wrote this blog last November and looked at a portion of a play that deals with self awareness of the artist.) Details are what make a person. Auditions and first-time-greetings only see so much, so it is important for me to discover the ongoing intricacies of my self that make up the full of me.
I'm trying to listen more and wait more.
When I first got here I wanted to soak up as fast as I could: now I think it is time for me to love where I'm at and love the world that is created with me - not the ideal world I'd like to create.
Also I'm turning 24 soon - which is just bizarre to me.
